Jeeze! First I'm depressed, then I feel sickly, and now I wanna die again. I just wish this could all go away, too much is going on, yet too little is going on at the same time. I have been hating myself even more. Making me not want to do anything, I just want to be away from everything... Which I can't do because I have to do things like school (I do not like school) I'm struggling a little, getting allot of C's. Not exactly a good thing. I just feel so terrible, for what? I don't know. I can't really focus on anything. The worst part is that I have no one to talk to, except a damn pencil and paper, which are really the only things keeping me going at the moment. I hate this! I'm left to complain about something that no person on here, or my friends would understand, or really care about. And, no. I don't want your pity, and I don't need to tell me that I'm wrong. I get enough of that on a daily basis, I know I can't do anything right. I know that there's something wrong with me. I know that I could be a better friend, and less clingy. I know that I don't make the right choices. I know I'm not beautiful. I know that I don't do enough. I know that I'm always wrong. I know that I should think right. I know I should stop hating myself. But that's just how I am, It's too late to stop.